Kissing doesn't feel good at all.  It's like, okay, whatever... mouth, tongue.  Don't care.  I mean, I can be attracted to the person... And nothing...

And masturbation, too.  It doesn't feel like anything.  Maybe I'm doing it wrong, but I can't feel it or its just... Not painful persay... uncomfortable?  No pleasure.  I've never climaxed.  I've only ever tried clitoral stimulation.  I'm terrified of putting anything up my vagina... I can't really tell how much of the hymen is left... I don't even wear tampons.  It scared the crap out of me.

I am on an SSRI, which can cause anorgasmia... But I mean, I think even before that it was the same.  I can't get off the medications.

I feel horrible when I make out with someone and feel nothing.  I've tried with multiple people who are experienced.  It all felt the same.

So just... Why the hell can't I friggin feel anything?!
What is wrong with me?  How can I fix this?

I need a serious answer for advise on masturbation.  Not just "use a finger".  I don't know, if it were that simple... I wouldn't have this problem.

So... Help?