Well I have depression, and it gets really bad over vacations because to be honest I feel like I am wasting my time, and my life, feeling like this.  I'm not living the life that a teen should and it is driving me crazy.  I really need to make changes so that I stop feeling like this, I can't stand thinking that I'm wasting my life.  Seriously, I am very on edge here and I'm spending ALL of my time trying to think of something to do, I JUST WANT SOME SERIOUS RELATIONSHIPS!!! TRUE FRIENDS!!! ANYTHING!!!!

But I do not know how to make these changes.  I'll admit, I don't have any close friends and I don't really have anything to do outside.  Everyone says "Just go out and make friends", well it isn't that easy when no one that you know lives around you.  I feel that all my friends at school just use me because I'm the only person around there for them, then I'm just tossed aside when there's anyone else.  

Idk I wish I could change, I really need to change I can't live like this anymore, but I don't know how I can do it, and I don't want to spend my entire summer vacation trying to figure it out and never accomplishing it.

Hmm, it sounds like you don't really know how to make friends. But maybe you're so nervous that you're having a hard time. Have you asked your school friends to hang out outside of school? That's a great chance and accomplishes two things. You show them that you want to hang out more. And hopefully yoiu'll get to hang out with them.

You don't want to waste your summer. So don't! Haha, I know that's easier said than done. What's around you? Do you have places to work or volunteer? Those are GREAT chances to really branch out and meet new people. Check around town and see if you can get a little summer job or volunteer chance. Looks great on college apps too!

Couple more options too. You could try to sign up for a camp. You can meet some truly amazing people there. Or think of new clubs or sports to join when you go back to school. If you want to start a sport, spend the summer getting ready by getting in shape and practicing. Maybe you'll see some other kids practicing and you can team up and have come fun.

Friendship can be scary, really. But you do end up having to take risks. Without knowing it, we can tend to seem like we don't want to hang out. Show that you're just as fun loving as the next person!

I really really hope this improves for you.

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