UPDATE: Today just basically was horrible. I'm going to go to sleep hopefully soon. I don't even want to go into details. I was just basically miserable. I avoided people's glances and stared at the floor for most of the day.
my reality...all the broken dreams, abandoned to live in agony....want the pain to end so badly...i can't hold myself together much longer....

i am also posting this as an e-help because...i don't know if people will bother to read this anyway.

Everybody has bad days, and bad things happen to everybody. Try not to let it get to you. I know it's hard, but a lot of the things that are happening to you can probably be sorted. I want to try and help you here, like I've said before, so it would seriously help if you posted some of the things you're struggling with here.

Any kind of information would be useful, because things can normally be dealt with a lot more easily when they're broken down into bits. I think you're trying to deal with too much information all at once here - breaking things down could really help you and could really put things into perspective.

Suicide is not the answer. I think you know that, deep down. There is a lot more to life than what you're experiencing right now, even though that's hard to believe right now. I hope you take up some of the advice I've given you in all my replies. Good luck :)

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.:.Faut souffrir pour etre belle.:.
♥ hey there, delilah, what's it like in new york city?