I think I'm becoming arrogant... and that's messing me up!!!
My dream since I was thriteen was moving out from my parents' at age 18 and going to college in a different city far away from them.
I worked hard, studied even harder and managed to be the editor of my school newspaper, director of the school play and third place of the honor roll. Besides of having a clone knit group of friends... then everything went downhill...
first my parents absolutely refused to let me go to another city -they even threatened to disown me!-
then, my security school refused to give me a scholarship since my dad is a teacher at its main rival university.
So technically I was forced to study to this college my dad works at.
This totally devastated me.
Mainly because I had sacrificed a WHOLE year of my high school studies -the freshman year- when I had been at this females only religious school to enter a mixed public one, only to end up at the main college that most of the graduates of my first high school choose as college.
I'm a bit smart, so I had chosen journalism as my career but since the university didn't offer it I applied to mass communication.
Unfortunately to me, MC program has made me a bit arrogant!!! I don't want to get along with my classmate because most of them are just -I don't know- empty!
Besides I'm stressed because I'm not stressed!!!
My workload involves -AT MOST- reading and then making a summary! This is killing me mentally!!!
I tried to make sudoko, crosswords and stuff like that but I'm so damn bored!
I'm definetely not a geek! I just like to be sorrounded with people who can think in something else than themselves!!!
and I'm so jealous of my friends! each of them have careers more interesting than mine! while I'm making a freaking summary they're building models of houses and learning how to get people out of jail. I'm so out of it, I began napping at odd times. I sleep about 10 hours a day and I've gained about 10 pounds in three months...
So here are my choices:
a- Tell my dad -politely- that the college he works at sucks and then apply to my dream college even WITHOUT his permission
b-being involved at student activities, council, asessment, stuff like that.
c-Taking extra language classes.
d-Quitting this college and enter the one where my whole bunch of friends is at.
e-Getting a job
I know I'm drowning in a drop of water, but I juat can't help doing it. And that's the worst part! I don't know why I complain aboutt!!! I have great grades but still I'm missing something that I used to have! But I don't know what it was!!!
any reply will be appreciated!
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LKH... Love.Kisses.Hugs.