Ok, at the moment, I have 2 girls in my life, im close friends with both of them. Ill put my actual questions in CAPS to be clear about what I need help on :) I know its long, I simplified it as much as I could, but the situations complicated
Girl 1
Ok, I know im young, so im not so ignorant to say I love her, I don't even know what true love feels like yet, but shes the closest thing Ive ever felt to it. And I will confidently say I love her as a friend. She means a hell of a lot to me.
Shes really helped me through some rough times, in particular rough times concerning girl 2.
I have told her how I feel about her, and she was very understanding about it, but at the end of the day, she didnt say she felt the same way back, so I assume she didn't.
But then, I wish she had given me a definet answer, as theres still lots of mixed signals happening, shes flirty with me, im flirty with her, but then shes like that with lots of people.
One of the big reasons I still think she might actually like me a tiny bit is becasue she opens up to me, something I know she doesnt do with anyone else, and she has a major problem with. Im very flatterd and happy she feels comfortable enough with me to to let off steam and tell me whats up and let me help her.
But its not just that, theres lots of half ambigious hints and signs from her, its hard to explain, subtle changes in how she acts towards me. basically, its enough to make me think I might have some kind of chance here
I've been thinking a lot lately of trying again with her, but im really not sure
DOES SHE STILL KNOW I LIKE HER? (I told her some months ago)
IS IT WORTH ME DOING IT, OR WILL I JUST SEEM WEIRD AND PUSHY FOR REPEATING MYSELF ABOUT ASKING HER?
IF SO, HOW DO YOU GO ABOUT TELLING SOMEONE YOU STILL LIKE THEM?, ive never done it before....
I know chances are I wont see her much after this year, so if we did get together, it would only be fun. but that doesnt matter. Id really like to show her what she means to me.
WHAT DO I DO AS ITS ACTUALLY STARTING TO BOTHER ME ALOT I CANT EXPRESS TO HER HOW IM FEELING ABOUT HER AS I CANT CROSS THE FRIEND BARRIER. ?
Girl 2
We kind of have a slight history. She was my first proper crush. we got really close, but at the end of the day werent anything more than friends.
Infact to be blunt she was pretty slutty and hurt me baddly. we fell out for a long time, but I got over it, and we made friends again.
Right now, shes showing me a hell of a lot of signs she likes me. but Im not certain whether thats just becasue she knows I like girl 1 now, and wants to be liked again, but I don't think it is, I suspect she might actually just like me. Shes flirty as hell (like ridiculously) ands been relying on me a lot lately.
IS THERE ANYWAY OF TELLING WHETHER SHE ACTUALLY LIKES ME OR JUST WANTS THE ATTENTION?
In all honesty I dont really like her like that anymore, or not really anyway.. She has a hell of a lot of negative points, and when I think about it, im really not convinced there could be any long term relationship between us, but if I think a little less about it, I realise, that for all her bad points, shes still that same girl I felt so much for, and there is a tiny part of me that never really got over her. I get on with her a hell of a lot better than most people.
WOULD IT BE WISE FOR ME TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP WITH HER AT ALL?
Its also important for me to mention, that in about a year, me and her are going to the same university. and we'll be living on the same campus! hell the possibility of room mates isnt out the question! so if I started going out with her now, there'd be no reason for us to break up any time soon. But then this is uni we're going to, isnt that a time to mess around have fun and experiment, and lets not mince words, sleep around.
WOULD IT BE A GOOD THING TO HAVE A STEADY GIRLFRIEND AT UNI?
So thats where I at. I'd really appreciate some impartial opinions about everything, and any advice you have.