Obviously from the stats above i'm VERY skinny....just to give you an idea though, you can see my ribs and all when my shirt is off.

I'm blessed with a fast metabolism, plus I don't eat much. I don't count calories, and it's hard to guess - but my daily eating routine goes as followed:

Breakfast: Skip
Lunch: Sandwich
Dinner: Pasta, OR chicken, OR pork chops etc - normally very light
Snacks: I snack through out the day - chips, fruit, etc

I don't gain easily, (again, fast metabolism most likely) so I can basically eat whatever I want.

I counted calories a few times, just to get an idea...I'm always under 1,000 calories, most of which is made up through drinking soda (drink too much of that)

Now, my mom is average size, dad is overweight....but both me and my sister (18 yrs old) are v thin - very weird that genetics arent playing a role...

However, I realize that as you get closer to 30 your metabolism slows

And I'm worried about this.

While part of me hates being this skinny - awkward at the beach, changing room, etc....I love it too.

It doesn't happen often, but I'll occasionally reach 121 lbs...and while I know i need to gain 15 lbs+, i freak out, and make sure I'm 120 or under.

Ideally, I would like to be 115 or less....but I'm not going to make myself sick doing so. (Nor do I know why I want to be that weight either....)

When I don't eat much for dinner when I'm home (from college) my mom partially jokingly, but with a vert serious edge says "You need to eat more....you're going to make yourself sick....other wise I'm going to start worrying that your anorexic"....shes said this multiple times within the last year

I've monitored by weight as such since I was about 18 - so 2 to 3 years now. Again, because I can eat whatever I want without gaining, I don't work out in order to lose weight, nor do I count my calories.

Nor do I think I'm fat, I know I'm not.

But it's always on my mind, I've set 120lbs as the lowest I want to be (and I remain around there pretty consistentyl) and 115-110 lbs is my ideal weight, but again, I'm not striving for that, cos that would indeed make me sick.

So I don't know. Do I have a problem? And if so, what is it? Surely it can't be anorexia since I dont think I'm fat and since I don't lose weight?

It's just a weird feeling knowing that I SHOULD gain weight, but don't WANT to.

An eating disorder is an obsession that completely controls your life. Wayyyy different.

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~Bougar.~