I went home last night and the guy i live with seb was waiting for me. He asked how was school so i said fine why? and he said just wondered because i know your taking again. I just stood there blank and didnt answer and he lost it with me. He hit me and it has really scared me. MrsW, my teacher came over to give me a piece of work that needed doing and noticed that i wasnt talking to seb and i always do. Im really scared to go near him now and MrsW was sat in the kitchen and i was getting a drink when seb walked in and he got closer and i flinched and moved away. I cant bring myself to go near him because im really scared of what he may do. i know he found my needles and coke and i dont want to see his reaction. The parties i go to always have drugs available and ive been taking for months and i stopped when i got realy out of control but have started again in the past few weeks just to make myself feel a little bit better about myself and i dont understand why he has flipped so badly when he knew i have always done it.
MrsW now knows because he told her and she wants me to get help but im not a junkie i just do it for fun and to bring myself up when im donw. This is the last thing i wanted her to know because im scared she will think badly of me. She wants me to get help and its just making me feel realy bad knowing what ive done but i cant stop myself i still take them.
How would you go about explaining to someone you feel you can really talk to about personal stuff? like how do you start it off? I dont have amum and my dad is awol