My mom cheated on my dad when i was a young child (i heard this a couple months ago). I had to sit between them as she called him an alcoholic and a failure a couple days ago. They fight about my mom having to go to the public laundromat. They fight about sending out my SAT scores because it will cost money. My dad always checks to make sure my mom calls only verizon customers because the calls are free.

Their fight has been the focus of my life. It envelops me, and I have just realized that it defines me.

I feel like i don't know who i am.
I can't communicate what i'm feeling.

I was trying to write my college application essays, and when it really came down to it i had to write about me. It was depressing to think that my enviroment has shaped me to be this way.

I'm full of hope and despair always, and at the same time.

I finally told her i needed therapy and she says i'm using it as an excuse for not being able to write my essay.

I don't know if i'm going to be able to get help...
I just want to know ME again.

sorry your dad seems like a royal piece of shit

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Educators destroy your brain,
but you don't know, so why care?
Fagotto

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My parents have been fighting since i was little.  

 My mom cheated on my dad when i was a young child (i heard this a couple months ago). I had to sit between them as she called him an alcoholic and a failure a couple days ago. They fight about my mom having to go to the public laundromat. They fight about sending out my SAT scores because it will cost money. My dad always checks to make sure my mom calls only verizon customers because the calls are free.

Their fight has been the focus of my life. It envelops me, and I have just realized that it defines me.

I feel like i don't know who i am.  
I can't communicate what i'm feeling.

I was trying to write my college application essays, and when it really came down to it i had to write about me. It was depressing to think that my enviroment has shaped me to be this way.  

I'm full of hope and despair always, and at the same time.

I finally told her i needed therapy and she says i'm using it as an excuse for not being able to write my essay.

I don't know if i'm going to be able to get help...
I just want to know ME again.

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....and people wonder why kids, when they go out late at night, why there parents are not with them.

kids go out on there own, cause in most cases, they try to get away from a broken home.

bro, my advice - ONLY YOU can fix what is broken at YOUR HOME - no 1 else.

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Cherish = LW Italian bella ;). jenny w1971 = LW sexy freak.
"The amount of fail on THEFORUM.COM is reaching epic proportions." - hughnon

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I feel extremely similar...my situations different though.  
But either way we're both feeling pretty damn trapped.

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Same here. x.x