Pregnant and boyfriend stuff please -- LiveWire Teen Forums

My boyfriend and I have been dating 10 months tomorrow. I am sixteen years old and he is nineteen. We are madly in love. Not to far into our relationship I got pregnant. When we first found out I was pregnant we were scared to death and immediatly sought out abortion. My reasoning was because I did not want to "ruin my boyfriends life" and i did not think I could bear my parents to find out. My parents are very religious and it would have dissapointed them tremedously more than I could handle. We schedualed the abortion, in another state so we could do it without parental consent. I went to school stressed and talked to my guidance counsler about it all, just to vent. The day before the abortion the clinic called and told us they could not do it. This was after we had stressed for weeks trying to come up with $500 to do all of this. We called they refered us to another clinic that could do it 2 days later. The next day my boyfriend and I went into school as usual. Within the last 15 minutes of school I got called down to guidance. I went down and there were all my schools social workers and stuff. They then informed me that they had just told my parents I was pregnant and my boyfriends (who is 19's) parents. They said by law they were obligated to. My initial reaction was catastrophic I freaked out and almost died right there. I screamed and cried not because I didnt want to have the baby but because I could not face my parents. My parents then walked in escorted by 2 cops, my principal, my school psyciatrist, and other social workers. I just cried and cried. As soon as my parents knew I knew I had to keep the baby. That was not bad because deep down I had always wanted to keep it. We went home after I watched both my parents cry and tell me they would support me. I called my boyfriend and he was okay, and just worried about me. As time on, I not only accepted that I was having a baby but looked forward to it so very much. I was so happy in my heart. My boyfriend was still kinda iffy on the subject and when times would get hard he would "blame me" for wanting to keep the baby. Dont get my wrong my boyfriend is the love of my life and the most amazing guy in the world. Now that I decided to keep the baby everything was cool and my boyfriend wanted to stay by me and have a family. But before I got pregnant he had plans to go to a college 2 and half hours away. And once I got pregnant he still decided to go there. I am now 28 weeks pregnant and my boyfriend is far away. Inside I am angry at him for leaving me, how could he just leave me here alone to do this? I am sixteen years old and this is so hard. Secondly, he is at college studying and going to parties and stuff. He is expieriencing something I will never have the oppertunity to and to me thats not fair. I am going to miss out on so much of my juinior, senior, and college life years and he is still at college acting like nothing ever happened. I have completely adjusted my life to accomidate this baby and everything and I have no problem sacrificing so much for the baby, but he is at college partying as if nothing has changed. The baby is going to be born in november and when i go into labor it will take him 5 hours to get to the hospital, at least. After the baby is born maybe the next day he has to go back up to college to take finals. He can't be here for me and support me the way I really need from that far away. I would never ask him to give up his education for me but I asked him to go to a school closer to home, where me and the baby will be. He still went far and left us. I now sit at home everyday, very pregnant, jealous, angry and betrayed because I feel like its not fair that I am giving EVERYTHING I have for our family and he couldn't go to a closer college. His family has the money, he has the grades, he just wouldn't and I hate him for that. Everyday I miss him and wish he was here but he is not and it breaks my heart. Not only does it hurt so bad but there is nothing at all that can fill this void. I need him to step up. Am I completely nuts? This is the hardest time of my life and I feel completely abandoned by him. He calls and stuff and I know he loves me and would never cheat on me or anything I just need him here and he isn't. Our little baby boy needs to see his father more than once a month, its not fair, if he CAN be closer to his family than he should be. Please help.

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