For about 6 months I've been taking at least 10-20mgs of hydrocodone just to fall asleep. I wasn't getting any high from it but it'd help me sleep. Yesterday, being the smart person that I am, decided to up and quit and not think about it in the slightest.

I need to lay off or quit entirely for a while. I just don't want to. I enjoy getting the high off them. I depend on them to sleep. I kind of need them.

I don't even know why I'm making this topic. I just know that I've been up all night and it's fucking 9am and I'm never out of bed at this time. By 9pm I'll be high once again and I'll be able to sleep.

The end. I'm not quitting. Fuck it.

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Thought is a kind of opium;
it can intoxicate us, while still broad awake;
it can make transparent the mountains...
and everything that exists.

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painkillers & sleeping cant be QUITE he addiction. talk to a doctor.

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..What the hell did you just say?

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Thought is a kind of opium;
it can intoxicate us, while still broad awake;
it can make transparent the mountains...
and everything that exists.

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Quote: from nikki123 at 8:20 am on Nov. 10, 2008

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painkillers & sleeping cant be QUITE he addiction. talk to a doctor.

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..What the hell did you just say?

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i think they said that painkillers linked with sleeping is addictive and you should speak to your doctor?

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It's too late to save myself from falling.
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I kind of thought that too, but I wasn't sure. I know it's addictive. Pain killers are addictive, period. It's just I don't really care, you see. I'd rather have an addiction than give them up. It hasn't even been 2 days and I already can't sleep and I want to be high. This part might even be in my head, I don't know.

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i feel that exact same way, who cares if i'm addicted if it works for me. i don't want to give them up so i won't. it could be worse.

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It's too late to save myself from falling.
Don't let the sun go down on me.

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If you are quitting, do it at a rehab center... opiate withdrawls can be REALLY UGLY.

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No one except my dealer and people on the internets actually know I take them. There's no way in hell I'd ever do rehab. I'll just keep taking them!

Edit: I already smoke weed. I drink too. I take benzos. I do a whole hell of a lot that I shouldn't be doing but don't plan to quit. I just want a lower tolerance. =\

Post edited at 7:33 am on Nov. 10, 2008 by Kates04

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Thought is a kind of opium;
it can intoxicate us, while still broad awake;
it can make transparent the mountains...
and everything that exists.

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i take codiene constantly, i like the help it gives me. i don't see why you should quit if it work for you.

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This is the illusion that opiates give you.  I was this naive once.  Then opiates grabbed my balls and twisted them real hard.  

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"I feel a bit lightheaded; maybe you should drive. . . ."

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no no no. you need them. that's like...your reason for existing.

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