Throughout high school I was the occasionally stoner, using more and more each year, until after I graduated I developed an opiate addiction and I use pot, alcohol, and benzos on almost a daily basis.

The thing is, my mother pretty much knows about my addiction. She knows I use in her house. It's right in front of her. Plain and simple.

The only problem is now she's being an out-right cunt about me ever leaving the house. It's a struggle to even get out the front door. I'm supposed to go to a benefit tonight and then I'm staying with a friend. My mother and I had a fight about this.. which has lasted 2 days. I'm leaving tonight whether she likes it or not. I'm an adult and she's a cunt, I don't care.

She's idiotic, she fails at logic, and overall she's a bad mother. She's told me before that she doesn't care if I drink as long as I don't drive, she said she doesn't care if I smoke pot, and really she's supplied about a third of all the opiates I take.

Now she's bitching about my friends and their drug use. She said I shouldn't be around them because they use too much, although I'm pretty sure I use far more than them. She said if I do anything tonight and she can tell tomorrow that I might as well pack my bags. I just don't fucking get it. She's supplied my alcohol and opiates. She out-right said she doesn't care. Now she's being a bitch and just causing issues.

I think this is more of a rant than anything. She told me when she was younger than she took all kinds of drugs and was always drunk. She even told me about her using cocaine.

Overall, I'm just annoyed. I've never given her a reason to bitch about it. She's never cared before. She's never been in my life. This actually isn't even her house, it's my aunt's and she doesn't give a shit what I do. I just want her to shut the fuck up. I've never given her a reason to be pissed. She's never seen me obviously stoned/high or drunk. She's never had any issues with me. She just hates everything about me and everything about my friends and she just needs to chill.

Fuck.

The end.

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Thought is a kind of opium;
it can intoxicate us, while still broad awake;
it can make transparent the mountains...
and everything that exists.

Anyways...Hmm. Just leave then dude. Your an adult, your right, do whatever the fuck you want. she shouldn't care. And she doesn't obviously.

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How can I go forward when I don't know which way I'm facing?

I hope you feel better

She knows if its not a home it'll be somewhere else and she'd rather be there to see it.

First time with alcohol and a cigarette my dad was there. Keeping an eye on me.

Rather know what I was doing than try and stop me, only making me do more.

You mum obviously want you to learn from your own mistakes.

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Don't be afraid your life will end; be afraid that it will never begin.

I guess you'll just have to put up with whatever until May.  Idk.

My mother kicked me out when I was 13 without any consideration whatsoever as to where I'd go. She signed over custody of me within a week. She has hated me since I was born. If anything, I've been the burden on the entire family. She's been my burden. She tries to be a mother when there's no room in my life for one. She can go fuck herself.

She finally left anyway. Which means I can leave.

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Thought is a kind of opium;
it can intoxicate us, while still broad awake;
it can make transparent the mountains...
and everything that exists.

I think you know you have a problem.  That is why you are creating these threads.  Unfortunately, sympathy isn't going to cure your addiction.  Please seek professional help.  

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"I feel a bit lightheaded; maybe you should drive. . . ."

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Again you reach out to LW regarding your addiction.

I think you know you have a problem. That is why you are creating these threads. Unfortunately, sympathy isn't going to cure your addiction. Please seek professional help.

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As of right this second I have absolutely no issues with my addiction. I know pretty well that I have one, but I'm not at the point where I really have a desire to quit. This isn't what this topic was about.

It's about my mother and her sudden urge to be just that, a mother. Which she isn't. She can't tell me to stop doing drugs. She has no say. I was just ranting. The only reason I mentioned the drugs is to prove that she's pretty much a stupid person. She's given me drugs, for years she didn't care, and now that I'm developing a life she wants to keep me here all over again.

I'll stop "reaching out" over the internets.

Livewire is retarded.

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Thought is a kind of opium;
it can intoxicate us, while still broad awake;
it can make transparent the mountains...
and everything that exists.

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Quote: from julian at 8:32 pm on Nov. 14, 2008

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Again you reach out to LW regarding your addiction.    

 I think you know you have a problem.  That is why you are creating these threads.  Unfortunately, sympathy isn't going to cure your addiction.  Please seek professional help.  

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As of right this second I have absolutely no issues with my addiction. I know pretty well that I have one, but I'm not at the point where I really have a desire to quit. This isn't what this topic was about.

It's about my mother and her sudden urge to be just that, a mother. Which she isn't. She can't tell me to stop doing drugs. She has no say. I was just ranting. The only reason I mentioned the drugs is to prove that she's pretty much a stupid person. She's given me drugs, for years she didn't care, and now that I'm developing a life she wants to keep me here all over again.  

I'll stop "reaching out" over the internets.  

Livewire is retarded.

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Since you posted this in the TA&SA forum instead of the family/relational/whateverforum, I assumed drugs were the main point.  

I'm truly sorry for assuming this, as I also use Livewire to rant sometimes.

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"I feel a bit lightheaded; maybe you should drive. . . ."