He came over again. This time, I held everything back, even though part of me didn't want to. I wanted to let him do what he wanted, and do what I wanted.
I don't fucking know what's holding me back from him, but something screams, "NO!" ...and I listen. Even when he says, "I love you." I can't say it back.
I feel like I've fallen out of love with him, but he loves me so I'm trying to force myself to love him. I just can't.
6:12 pm on Oct. 15, 2008
xBlackRainbow93x
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Ahhh.. sounds painful. It will hurt him when you tell him.
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randomrocks
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you shouldn't have to force yourself to love someone
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The Wolfhound
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+1, randomrocks.
Tell him how you feel. Much better than being unhappy for a long time and end up telling him when he gets his hopes up a lot...
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Jadien
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It's not fair to him.
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HuffleHaire
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It's not fair to either of you to keep pretending. He's missing new opportunities, you're missing new opportunities.
If you're absolutely positive that you do not and can not ever love him, then let him go. At least give him that.
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lisma
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you sound like your caring too much for other people and not thinking about your own feelings you have to take care of yourself to so tell him
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