I started refusing to eat meat when I was 4. Meat has always grossed me out and my parents gave up on trying to make me eat it. Up until now I have never been a vegetarian tho. I would only eat like 5 things from the meat group and they were very specific. I also don't try new foods. I only want to stick to ones I have always eaten. But if I find something wrong or get grossed out with what I eat then I stop eating it. Like today a teacher informed us of what parts of the animals go into what meat and how nothing is completely sanitary and there is a % of bugs in everything. Now I try to eat and all I see is eggs and larva and I gag and cant eat.
I also don't like to eat breakfast or lunch and I like to eat at night instead and I get real hungry and eat before I sleep.
I don't like my body. I know I am not fat. I even think I might be to skinny ...at least my arms and legs are.I have taken laxative to make my stomach flatter once. But I don't care about wait and am not concerned with it. I don't like it when people give me complements.
As a child I was forced to have sex and I don't like to be touched or hugged. I cut myself and I am depressed and I feel like people don't like me and shouldn't because I feel like I am gross. I am not ugly an I know that....but i still feel gross.

I was thinking about eating disorders and looked them up and I noticed a few similarities ........so I want to know what someone else thinks.

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your just paranoid. but you need to eat, or you will die.  
If food was not safe to eat, then wouldnt we all be dead or sick from disease by now??

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I think your depressed and have a small case of ocd, i dont you have an eating disorder yet, but it might definatly be going towards that route if you dont get help to prevent it. call 1800eatokay

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