Quote: from weezybabyx7 at 10:13 pm on Oct. 15, 2008
it all seemed pretty fucking harsh to me. 
As it should. Your lying to him to was beyond irresponsible and could potentially screw him over for life. Do you honestly expect people to go "oh, that's okay..." and have all this sympathy for you when you talk about that?
I can understand your feeling guilty about it, and in fact, I'd expect you to if you had any sense of decency, which you seem to. I'm not trying to be mean, I'm simply trying to express at how awful of a thing to do it was as you didn't seem particularly remorseful over it.
i didnt plan on lying to him i didnt even plan on being with him i didnt plan on caring. its hard enough to find someone you love and truley care about but when you cant be with him and tell the world about it. its even harder. 
This is where I get doubts about how much you truly feel guilty over it. You say you do, but you don't appear to accept full responsibility by saying things like you didn't plan on it, you didn't remember it happening, etc. It does not matter what you planned on doing because what you planned on doing has no bearing on what actually happened.